bleh....

i'm going through that phase again.

that one where the little voice of doubt speaks a wee bit more clearly and enunciates correctly just enough to that i can hear it and start paying attention to it.

i'm doubting my relationship and the people in my earth science group. while i'm sure the latter is perfectly alright for me to question, as no one but me has really worked on the project thus far, i hate doubting my relationship.

i've got the feeling that i'm just letting my disillusionment with school and the people that attend columbia college get to my personal life, and that sucks.

i think i need to get out and actually do something, as camping was shot down for last weekend.

another bummer: i wanted to go to san fran for my birthday this year, but it looks like i have to spend quality family time with the folks. i just wish we could spend it the weekend before, so that i could have some fun with my friends on halloween (what little fun a 19 year old can have on that day...)

on a slightly grosser, paranoid note, i've become obsessed with my breath. i'm constantly worried that it smells bad. though on the plus note, i am brushing my teeth more than the recommended two times a day, and i can eat three cinnamon altoids at a time.