maybe...

i think i might not go to uc davis and just go to hawaii instead and pursue marine biology.

it's very much so a serious thought and i have professor tune at columbia college to thank for resparking my interest in biology and christopher moore for making me wonder when the humpback whale's song is all about....

that was hell

so the other day, me, adam, and matt decided to go rafting in knights ferry. we picked an area that the rafting companies take families on, thinking that we wouldn't hit the rapids that the stanislaus us famous for (i didn't learn this until after the incident..)

as it turned out, they were flushing the river so that the salmon could spawn and it was higher up and stronger than usual that day, this we also didn't learn until afterwards.

we got to some rapids that sounded too strong for out wal-mart style rafts to handle, so we pulled off to the side to get out and walk around them. just as we pull to the side, the current is too strong and carries me away in the boat.

it ends up flipping over on my head and the raft being a shitty raft, has loops for rope to go through and tie together so that the boat can be lifted out easily. but because the rope isn't long enough, i had to tie it to the boat. and because the loops weren't completely closed, the rope came out and wrapped around my neck as the ends tied to the boat were pulling me down river and choking me.

so adam and matt are hanging onto ta tree and adam lets go to get me. he pulled the rope off my neck and it took a couple seconds for me to stop choking.

then we had to have matt pull me while i pushed with my legs against a tree and adam was pushing me to get out of the water.

by the time we all got out of the water, matt lost his keys, wallet (which had a nice chunk of change), and backpack. i lost my shoes, my pants were torn, and now i have a scratch on my stomach the rivals in length to my other stomach scar. adam lost his shoes, a shirt, and our cooler. somehow through it all, adam still had his wallet and keys and one of his shirts didn't get too soaking wet.

so matt went out ahead of us and me and adam stayed behind as we had no shoes and couldn't climb over the blackberry vines as easily as matt. we also happened to land in a mosquito nesting ground and were promptly covered in the bugs. while i was wiping them off of adam, they all attacked behind my knees and my back.

we walked for about twenty minutes and found some people that were a touch drunk who drove us to the road. but she wouldn't drive us two miles more to adam's car. so we stared walking along the road and had a couple people pass us without offering help. finally this guy and his wife stop and come back with a truck and take us to adam's car. we didn't get home until after ten at night and had to call locksmiths to open up matt's truck, which didn't happen until the day.

all in all, i almost died, matt lost most of his life, and adam got a couple scratches. thinking back on it, if we had worn life jackets, matt and adam wouldn't have been able to grab onto the trees and pull me out of the water, so i'm not too tore up about not wearing them.

but yeah, that was my hellish day of rafting in knights ferry. we've all decided on a couple things 1:the next time we go rafting, don't buy them or oars from walmart 2: if there aren't rafting trips going on in knights ferry, ask why 3: don't bring your keys and wallet with you 4: don't buy rafts or any outdoor equipment from wal-mart, because it's usually crap and will most likely kill you if you follow the directions.

college updates

i have been rejected from berkeley and though i was expecting it, i'm still dummed.

now the search for a place to live is under way.

i've come to realize that there is way too many forms to fill out that ask for the same info. wouldn't the uc system save time, money, and energy if everything were on one form? i'm sure it would save frustration on the students part as well...

college ranting

adam's brother matt has moved in with us for the time being and i'm still having a hard time getting used to living with two guys that eat a lot.

i have yet to hear from berkeley on the status of my application, and i have to have my intent to register in by june 1st. i hate cutting it so close...

i have discovered that i hate most of the valley and the idiots how stole my face plate to the stereo. but that's alright, because we got it back and now they know not to mess with our stuff.

i took a trip down to davis recently and found that it sucks, but i might have to go there anyways. hopefully i can find someone that isn't stuck up that i can relate to and possibly make friends with, but i doubt it.

though on the bright side, there is some tasty sushi there, just not as good as berekely...

i've discovered what it truly means to be a starving college student trying to make next months rent, and it sucks ass. i wish when parents talk to you about moving out, they would say stuff other than "i think this is the worst mistake you could ever make" ( i truly think that moving out was the smartest move possible..) and actually talk about stuff like "you have to wash dishes at least once a week or they smell bad", or "laundromats suck you dry, so make every load count." but no, they decide to tell you that you're stupid and not say why.

oh well, at least my momma in hawaii and here in california are helping me out without being bitchy and judgemental :)

cotton wood and halo

i've discovered two things today.

first of all, i love cotton wood, as i'm one of the few that isn't allergic to it, i love watching it drift in the wind and have named a few wayward tuffs fluffy and tuffy when they come into the car.

second, these new computers at the college make halo muchos easier and the graphics = heaven.

woot woot

the final grades are in, and i will be getting my aa degree sometime in june (whenever they decide to print them out...)but still...woot woot.

blahness

it's finals week and i've crammed and crammed, and yet i still don't remember things. slump, slump to the max.

i just feel like laying down, going to sleep, and not waking up for a week or so....

oh well, i'm just stressed and as soon as this week is over, i'll be fine again.

maybe...

just in time for summer

my fc twin has arrived in the mail finally!!

it plays not only super nes games, but original nintendo as well!!!


as soon as school gets out in two weeks, i'm all over this thing like a hobo on a hot ham sandwich. woot woot.

bettie page has left the building

the saga of the bettie page plugs has come to an end.

since i couldn't get them out myself, i had to have my dad cut them off, so now i have bettie page nubbings and infected ears.

random fun for today

sure, a touch late fo reaster, but i'm still in the spirit...


Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net



Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net



Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net



the fun just never stops....

owwie

so i got these 2gauge bettie paige earplugs from hot topic a while ago. while i love them, they happen to be flared plugs.

i decided that today i wanted to take them out and put in my black silicon barrels.

i got my left plug almost out before the pain got to be took much, and now i have a really sore left earlobe and i'm pissed.

maybe i'll go to immortal ink and make them numb it and take it out that way or maybe they can cut my plug off. either way, i don't think i'll be wearing these muchos awesome plugs anymore, and that's sad.

on moving out and foreign film needs

as a final update, me and adam are fully moved in, though we do lack certain entertainments such as Internet, but we're fighting through it...

which means we go to the college every chance we get and hop on mr. t1 line.

but anyways, things are looking good for us so far. my wonderful momma that got back from her month long hiatus in europe has sent me not 1, not 2, but 6 care packages. i'm just glad i was able to give her another reason to shop, though a shopper doesn't need a reason. and my grandma is getting stuff together to send me a package or two, so i won't be needing to shop for food for quite some time it looks like. woot woot.


onto another subject, pan's labyrinth, or el laberinto del fauno.




i drug adam with me to see it (as he drug me the previous night to see ghost rider, where i promptly fell asleep..) a couple weeks ago. and oh my god. this has got to be one of the best movies i have ever seen. i was a touch disappointed though to learn that there was no relation between pan and the god pan.

but anyways, this movie has sparked the foreign film enthusiast in me and now i'm on a quest to watch all of the devil's backbone and as many subtitled films as possible.

this might prove difficult though, as i only have a computer to watch movies on....

this day sucks

this morning, i fell on my back in the student parking lot because of the ice that no one put salt on. i scraped my hand and my tattoo, i'm afraid to look at it.

then the student snack bar has no food and i'm freaking hungry!!

and now one of the main reasons i enjoy thrusdays is gone today. the bakery is closed fo rsome obscure reason, and i wanted chocolate chip cookies...**end rant

the big day

drum roll please.....










melanie is moving out!!can i get a "woot"?



the big hoopla happens this friday as me and adam move into an apartment in jamestown.

my dad thinks this is a big mistake and that i'm going to get pregnant, though he refused to say those words. my step-mom thinks this is pointless and worries that i'll drop out of school. my momma on the other hand, is all for it. why? because she knows that i'm not stupid and she doesn't think that i'm going to wreck my life by moving out of my dad's house. my momma realizes that i can do this, and that me and adam will work through this stuff. she also knows that i need to spread my freaking wings and leave. so i plan on telling her after she gets back from europe on friday.


we aren't getting a phone put in right away, so my cell is the house phone, but we might get one put in for dsl purposes.


i'm really hoping that everything falls through alright and that we are able to move, because if we can't, someone's losing a head...

thoughts of...

adding onto my tattoo...

why? because i want to and it's better than thinking about the paper i have to write for history.

i'm thinking about an om symbol. above my lotus blossom so it looks like it's just emerging out of it... that would be sweet. except it would have to be black and white since my skin is too weird for colors...

athf

in this "post 9-11 world" (i hate that phrase with a passion!!), it seems to me that peopel over react a touch too quickly.

take for instance the highly publicized ad campaign gone wrong for the aqua teen hunger force(athf from now on..)movie. theses people placed electronic signs with two popular characters from the show around boston. the mooninites are obviously giving mr birdie.



so the question i pose to the world: how paranoid are these people?

i mean the people that freaked out about electronic mooninites. yes, i accept the fact that some people don't watch athf or anythign on adult swim for that matter. that i get. but are you telling me, that in ALL the people that saw these signs up, not a SINGLE ONE OF THEM who the characters are?

if that's the case, i vote that boston is exposed to athf just enough to realize that "hey, i see a sign. it has a mooninite on it. it's flipping me off. i don't think this is dangerous."

but then, why didn't people think "hey, i see an electronic sign. it has a funny little person on it that's flipping me off. i've never heard of a terrorist with a humor, so why would they have one now? i don't think this is too dangerous."

but maybe asking people to think before they assume that anything unfamilar is a bomb might be asking a wee bit too much...

we're out of the garden

by "we" i mean me and anyone that's ever been an ass or a complete bitch to me for whatever reason they saw fit.

by "the garden" i mean madison square garden and more importantly the boxing matches that take place there.

so to those that didn't take ms. nixon or that don't remember the short story we read in ap american lit, i mean that when i fight, from now on it's street rules bitches.

i'm tired of putting up with shit from people and have decided that my metaphorical nut sac must now fully descend.

i don't want to hear bitching about stuff like "if i don't get told something, i'm going to do whatever i want." or how about "she was really snotty and rude" being told behind my back when i and the people listening know that that isn't true.

some people, mostly jews, would call this "not kosher", and they're right. i refuse to put up with this crap anymore.

don't tell me how to live my life

don't assume that i'm a loose whore just because you were when you were young.

don't assume that every drug leads to a worse one, because sometimes people are content with the high they get, and one drug does not lead to another, even though it might have for you.

don't assume that i'm an idiot and can't wipe my own ass, or that i can't walk from a class to the parking lot without getting raped or mugged.

and don't for a second think that you know what's best for me, because you don't know me, so you can't possibly know what's best for me.

in short, i'm not taking anyone's shit anymore, i don't care who you are.*

*end rant

Kudos....

...to 50 cent for coming out with his own line of condoms. really, it's a really good idea to help promote safe sex and to help fund HIV awareness.

think of it this way:

kids are more likely to buy stuff that's promoted by a rapper they like and to use it.

kids don't really listen to their parents about sex, and it's been proven that school sex ed classes, the abstinence only programs that are taught, do not help lower the rate of sex among teens.

so why not market a condom with a famous person's name on it that a lot of kids want to emulate? it makes perfect sense. not only will 50 cent be making money off of his image being used, but i'm sure this will cause the number of teens to use condoms to rise.

but let's wait and see...

*slump*

it appears that moving out has been postponed for the time being. but rest assured, it will happen, just not right away as i had hoped.

goals for the winter...

since yesterday was my first official day of winter break, i decided to come up with some goals for this break, though i've just decided to write them out today...

goal the first: help mom advertise her new store mommy an' me and help her get the business going

goal the second: move out (this one requires adam to get a good paying job...)

goal the third: finish going from a to z on that horribly addicting game on gamershood.com...

thus ends my list of goals. tiny? yes. but i like to think of them as realistically challenging....

i've decided...

that the chp office in jamestown sucks. they were asses to a person that didn't deserve it, and were rude in a manner that was most uncalled for. now, because of a receptionist, my friend can't get his car back, and now can't get a job or finish his testing. his entire future is now screwed up because of a bitch. thank you.

december 7th, 1945...

how sad is it when i learned more from the animaniacs about ww2 and pearl harbor than i did my own history classes?

observations of the day...

made two days later..

* dehydraetd chicken chow mein is my friend

*nation states is amusing

*too many people take it too seriously

*the guy sitting next to me in Chem 10 lec reminds me of my ex, and why we broke up.

*his voice is also similar, and it i hate the sound of it.

*i do not like our resident fake-rasta guy at cjc, he doesn't even have rasta ideals...

*most of my lectures are pointless, except for human sexuality.

*startbucks is only yummy when i have a gift card.

*i crave movie theatre popcorn, adn i don't know why..

*i have less than $1 in my bank account, adn i stil lneed to pay tuition and buy books.

*my travel bug has started up again, and the only thign to cure it a a road trip for a few days.

*snood and puzzle pack keep my sanity in chem 10.

*quote of the day: "i bend for dimes now that i print at the college."

*elements 92, 93, 94: Uranium, Neptunium, Plutonium
Uranus, Neptune, Pluto
planet #7, planet #8, the planet formerly known as #9-how amusing

*i think i'm going to go crazy over my UC application...

two things...

first of all, this new blogger that came out says i need to sign in with my google id, but i don't have one....

second, i seem to have caught adam's "allergies" that make my nose run, my throat hurt, my tummy feel like poo and my engery level to be as high as a comoatose patient's. long story short, i am dreading the ride to reno and back. Perhaps i'll drug up before we take off....

i've just now decided

that i'm going to submit some of my photos to jones soda in hopes that maybe, just maybe one of them will get picked....